Saturday, January 19, 2013

Maybe

I haven't felt like talking to anyone this week. I haven't felt like moving from my bed. I can't focus on my schoolwork or eat or sleep. I'm trying to get out of this slump but it hasn't been good. I found out about the girl my ex has been arranged to marry. It's none other than his own cousin. There's no describing the amount of betrayal and humiliation that I'm feeling right now.

Maybe tomorrow will be a better day. Maybe tomorrow I'll be able to start over and do something productive. Maybe I'll be able to finally walk with my head held high. I was supposed to go on a date tonight with someone but I cancelled. I'm just not ready yet. I'm not even attracted to the guy.

Maybe something good will happen tomorrow. Maybe everything will turn out okay. Right now I just feel so alone. I have people asking me to do spells for peace and love for them and I just can't right now. I can't because I'm not in the right frame of mind. I'm so distraught over this situation that it's making me physically ill.

My friend who helps me run the study group is supposed to be coming up here to see me tomorrow. Maybe she can help me feel better. Just maybe.

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