I've been wandering for the past couple of days. I haven't felt much joy in my life. I feel stagnate. I feel like I'm not progressing in things that I'm doing. I'm actually thinking about finding another job because I'm tired of being overlooked for everything. Even though I've been at my job longer than everyone else, I am behind everyone else and I'm not sure why. I've never had a bad evaluation. I just feel like it's time to move on.
I feel like I'm holding myself back. I think it's time to move away from this town so I'm going to look at schools in different cities for me to go to after graduation. I think it'll be better for me to make a fresh start somewhere. The only thing that saddens me would be that I would have to leave my Wiccan Study Group behind. I'll be able to make a new study group in the new town that I choose to be in, but I feel bad that I'll be leaving everyone behind. I hope we will all keep in touch though.
I still have a year to think about all these things. Sometimes, I just think that maybe I should go ahead into the work force, get a place of my own, start paying off those student loans but I love learning. I love feeling like I'm earning my degrees and titles.
For now, I'm just going to enjoy the life I have right now and let things come to me.
Thursday, February 28, 2013
Sunday, February 24, 2013
Future Plans
I'm really unclear about my future at this point. My college recently changed course credit hours for my biochemistry classes that I am required to take for my Biochemistry major which now means that I will have to drop Biochemistry as my second major. I feel like this was all a money ploy. They separated the lecture and lab making it the equivalent of two classes instead of one.
I still have my animal science major and my chemistry minor but I was working so hard toward the double major. It'll give me more time to take other courses that I couldn't schedule in such as microbiology. Maybe I'll go on to nursing school or go to UGA to get my biochemistry degree. I haven't made a decision yet. I kind of feel like I'm running out of time.
I wouldn't mind doing nursing. I work in the hospital as a volunteer and those nurses are so nice and the job seems like good work. However, I don't know if nursing is what I truly want to do with my life. It's a really tough decision.
I still have my animal science major and my chemistry minor but I was working so hard toward the double major. It'll give me more time to take other courses that I couldn't schedule in such as microbiology. Maybe I'll go on to nursing school or go to UGA to get my biochemistry degree. I haven't made a decision yet. I kind of feel like I'm running out of time.
I wouldn't mind doing nursing. I work in the hospital as a volunteer and those nurses are so nice and the job seems like good work. However, I don't know if nursing is what I truly want to do with my life. It's a really tough decision.
Saturday, February 23, 2013
Getting Things Together
Today, is another Wiccan Study Group meeting and I hope it turns out well. We have a new person joining us today which I'm very excited about. Cara and I are busy trying to get everything together to have more structured meetings and an outline so everyone knows what we'll be discussing for each meeting. We're still in the baby stage of everything and trying to get our curriculum and material together.
Some of our people are ahead of others because they've been in groups and covens before. However, they studied with eclectic covens and we come from a specific tradition based on Welsh/Celtic Witchcraft. It's a little hard for them to understand because although we to have intuition about rituals, spells, etc, we still use traditional ritual outlines that have been passed down over time. Also, we want people to know not just about the history of our tradition but encourage them to study other traditions as well.
People have to be self motivated which is something the people who come to us aren't. I'm not sure why, but they don't really want to do research or find any information for themselves, or even practice by themselves. Sometimes you have to do these things to gain insight and perspective. Of course, we offer doing group sabbats and sometimes if we can make it happen, esbats. However, you have to be able to connect in a spiritual sense outside of the coven as well.
This is where our problem lies for us right now. I guess I'm going to have to start assigning homework!
Some of our people are ahead of others because they've been in groups and covens before. However, they studied with eclectic covens and we come from a specific tradition based on Welsh/Celtic Witchcraft. It's a little hard for them to understand because although we to have intuition about rituals, spells, etc, we still use traditional ritual outlines that have been passed down over time. Also, we want people to know not just about the history of our tradition but encourage them to study other traditions as well.
People have to be self motivated which is something the people who come to us aren't. I'm not sure why, but they don't really want to do research or find any information for themselves, or even practice by themselves. Sometimes you have to do these things to gain insight and perspective. Of course, we offer doing group sabbats and sometimes if we can make it happen, esbats. However, you have to be able to connect in a spiritual sense outside of the coven as well.
This is where our problem lies for us right now. I guess I'm going to have to start assigning homework!
Thursday, February 21, 2013
Charity
So right now I'm in a very motivated state of mind. I've been asking people for letters of recommendation for graduate and for medical school. I guess I could also just go ahead and apply to vet school. However, I'm not sure if I even want to be a vet anymore. It would be a nice job but I kind of want to be a nurse, a vet technician, or maybe, if I can get into med school, a doctor.
I'm putting together my medical folder for the Medical Board Committee here at College. They'll review my folder and see if I'm worthy of going to medical school. They can't stop me from applying, but they can seriously hinder my chances at acceptance if they choose not to write me their own letter of recommendation. I know a few of the professors on the board and maybe they'll be nice to my efforts.
It's funny how I'm choosing all these science-y fields when my least favorite subject in High School was science. I was never bad at science, I just found it quite boring. Sometimes I wonder what I really want out of life. My main goal in life isn't to get into medical school but just to be able to help people and contribute to someone's life in a major way. I guess I felt like that meant becoming a doctor.
Sometimes I think about joining the Peace Corps but I don't know if I'd like being away from my family for so long. I wouldn't mind digging a well in Africa so the people could have fresh water there. I talk to people about these ideas and things I want to accomplish in life and I believe they think I'm crazy for it. I can't believe that everyone is so self absorbed. They all tell me, "You just need to start a career and have a family. Take care of yourself and your own. That's good enough for the world." I just don't believe that's so.
I know what's wrong with the world. People think that way as I stated above. They only show love to their own and people who are like minded. Or maybe not even like minded because I know people who constantly backstab and talk about their so called "friends". People don't love each other like they used to. They don't have the same compassion for each other, sympathy or empathy. It's all a money thing now. Money seems to be the driving force in the world; it controls us and what we can do.
We, my friends, are hoarders of money. We treat this land like we own it and not like we're apart of it, not like we came from it, which is completely wrong. This land is not ours, we share it with so many other people, animals, vegetation. We're here to bring healing to the Earth and to its inhabitants. I may sound like a hippie but maybe they're right. One day, we're going to wake up and realize that lending a helping hand for free is one of the greatest gifts we can give to a person. As a doctor, I probably will make money, but I also want to help people for free, those who cannot help themselves. I want my services to be done out of kindness and not out of how much you're willing to pay me to do it.
I'm putting together my medical folder for the Medical Board Committee here at College. They'll review my folder and see if I'm worthy of going to medical school. They can't stop me from applying, but they can seriously hinder my chances at acceptance if they choose not to write me their own letter of recommendation. I know a few of the professors on the board and maybe they'll be nice to my efforts.
It's funny how I'm choosing all these science-y fields when my least favorite subject in High School was science. I was never bad at science, I just found it quite boring. Sometimes I wonder what I really want out of life. My main goal in life isn't to get into medical school but just to be able to help people and contribute to someone's life in a major way. I guess I felt like that meant becoming a doctor.
Sometimes I think about joining the Peace Corps but I don't know if I'd like being away from my family for so long. I wouldn't mind digging a well in Africa so the people could have fresh water there. I talk to people about these ideas and things I want to accomplish in life and I believe they think I'm crazy for it. I can't believe that everyone is so self absorbed. They all tell me, "You just need to start a career and have a family. Take care of yourself and your own. That's good enough for the world." I just don't believe that's so.
I know what's wrong with the world. People think that way as I stated above. They only show love to their own and people who are like minded. Or maybe not even like minded because I know people who constantly backstab and talk about their so called "friends". People don't love each other like they used to. They don't have the same compassion for each other, sympathy or empathy. It's all a money thing now. Money seems to be the driving force in the world; it controls us and what we can do.
We, my friends, are hoarders of money. We treat this land like we own it and not like we're apart of it, not like we came from it, which is completely wrong. This land is not ours, we share it with so many other people, animals, vegetation. We're here to bring healing to the Earth and to its inhabitants. I may sound like a hippie but maybe they're right. One day, we're going to wake up and realize that lending a helping hand for free is one of the greatest gifts we can give to a person. As a doctor, I probably will make money, but I also want to help people for free, those who cannot help themselves. I want my services to be done out of kindness and not out of how much you're willing to pay me to do it.
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
Books Galore
It's been quite a day and another adventure. I finally finished reading the book I had started back near the beginning of January called Crafting Wiccan Traditions by Raven Grimassi. I found out that Grimassi actually taught Scott Cunningham the Craft which I thought was very cool. I'll probably post a book review on my other blog about it soon. My other blog is at: http://goddesspoetry.blogspot.com/
I think the next book I'm going to start reading is The Earth Path by Starhawk. I was just thumbing through and I hope that it's interesting. I don't get very much time to read these days so I need to make some time. I've been busy taking exams and things and trying to get this coven together.
The other day I was at Goodwill and saw a book that caught my eye called The Seat of the Soul by Gary Zukav. I had seen it earlier in the New Age section of the Barnes & Nobles and decided to buy it. It was only a dollar and fifty cents compared to the twelve dollars it was at the book store so I thought why not. Plus, it looks like it's never been read. While I was there my dad saw a marble mortar and pestle and knew that I would like it so he ended up buying it for me. I already have one but it was so pretty and much bigger than the one I already had.
I would say that my life is looking up now. Things are getting better for me. I am getting out of that terrible place I have been in for the past month. I just need to keep my chin up and keep looking towards the future. The only person who can stop me is myself after all.
I think the next book I'm going to start reading is The Earth Path by Starhawk. I was just thumbing through and I hope that it's interesting. I don't get very much time to read these days so I need to make some time. I've been busy taking exams and things and trying to get this coven together.
The other day I was at Goodwill and saw a book that caught my eye called The Seat of the Soul by Gary Zukav. I had seen it earlier in the New Age section of the Barnes & Nobles and decided to buy it. It was only a dollar and fifty cents compared to the twelve dollars it was at the book store so I thought why not. Plus, it looks like it's never been read. While I was there my dad saw a marble mortar and pestle and knew that I would like it so he ended up buying it for me. I already have one but it was so pretty and much bigger than the one I already had.
I would say that my life is looking up now. Things are getting better for me. I am getting out of that terrible place I have been in for the past month. I just need to keep my chin up and keep looking towards the future. The only person who can stop me is myself after all.
Monday, February 18, 2013
Another Day in Paradise
So I had a very good and happy weekend. My Dad and Brother came to see me and cheer me up. Before they came to see me, I performed a happiness spell to help myself heal and be happy. I feel like it's working because I haven't been sad. I haven't even really thought about my ex. My mind has been focused more on the present than the past. Even when I try to think of the past I immediately start thinking about my life in the present and how my future is going to be a good one.
My love life isn't all together yet. I'm just talking to people right now, nothing serious. Going to take my time and take it slow. I'm talking to my former lover who I didn't really want to break up with in the first place. His name is Sunny. He's such a great guy and I'm happy when we talk. However, I'm talking to others as well. I don't want to limit myself or feel like I have to make a choice and be with someone right this instant.
It's nice to feel like I'm worth something again. It's nice to feel like I can be happy and move on with my life. I was beginning to think that I would just be miserable forever but I can get past this.
I just got back from a cultural event on campus about religion and the environment. When I say "religion" in reference to anything with my college, then I mean Christianity. That's the main religion on campus considering we have three churches on campus dedicated to the same religion. Sometimes I wish they would promote different religions but then I guess that would go against their "policies".
Basically, the whole event consisted of a man reading the story of Genesis from the Bible and part of Revelations. Yawn. Heard it, read it, know it. I don't need it read to me again. This event was supposed to be about helping the environment but there was nothing said about how we could help it. Basically, I sat through a church sermon. That's what it was.
My love life isn't all together yet. I'm just talking to people right now, nothing serious. Going to take my time and take it slow. I'm talking to my former lover who I didn't really want to break up with in the first place. His name is Sunny. He's such a great guy and I'm happy when we talk. However, I'm talking to others as well. I don't want to limit myself or feel like I have to make a choice and be with someone right this instant.
It's nice to feel like I'm worth something again. It's nice to feel like I can be happy and move on with my life. I was beginning to think that I would just be miserable forever but I can get past this.
I just got back from a cultural event on campus about religion and the environment. When I say "religion" in reference to anything with my college, then I mean Christianity. That's the main religion on campus considering we have three churches on campus dedicated to the same religion. Sometimes I wish they would promote different religions but then I guess that would go against their "policies".
Basically, the whole event consisted of a man reading the story of Genesis from the Bible and part of Revelations. Yawn. Heard it, read it, know it. I don't need it read to me again. This event was supposed to be about helping the environment but there was nothing said about how we could help it. Basically, I sat through a church sermon. That's what it was.
Friday, February 15, 2013
Being Whole
I'm finally learning to let go of things. And when I say things, I suppose that I mean people. If you love someone, that's what they say right? To let them go? Well, that's what I'm doing. I'm letting go because holding on only hurts me and the person I'm trying to hold on to. It was hard because I know that they still love me with all their heart but they won't make the right decision that needs to be made. So I'm making the decision now.
It was fun, it was pure, it was carefree. That's what our love was like, but it has to end now. There's no use in staying in this cycle. I begged, I pleaded, and I'm done. I'm done trying to talk logic to the illogical, talk sense to the senseless, talk honesty to the dishonest. Never again.
I can be happy again. I can make it through life and be happy. I can only depend on myself to change my mood. I am the only dependable person there is. Will it take time for me to open up to others? Yes, it will take a long time. Will it ever happen? Yes, I will open myself up to others again someday. Will I heal? Not entirely. Do we ever truly heal? Or do we just let ourselves forget over time by putting something else in it's place?
It's going to be tough to put something else in replace of my heart but it'll happen. I'll find something or someone else to love and it'll be good and pure. It'll be just like it was. I read today that it takes people on average almost 18 months to get over a break up. I'm sure this applies to people who were truly in love, who had a true relationship for at least a year. We were together for 2. I hope it doesn't take me that long.
I will get over this one day, whether that means having to replace someone for someone else. I will heal and I will be whole again. And I'll look back on these posts and say "wow, I can't believe I was that distraught over you. I found someone else who was deserving and beautiful and pure and everything you weren't. And most important of all they love me and make me happy. Happiness was something you could never give me."
It was fun, it was pure, it was carefree. That's what our love was like, but it has to end now. There's no use in staying in this cycle. I begged, I pleaded, and I'm done. I'm done trying to talk logic to the illogical, talk sense to the senseless, talk honesty to the dishonest. Never again.
I can be happy again. I can make it through life and be happy. I can only depend on myself to change my mood. I am the only dependable person there is. Will it take time for me to open up to others? Yes, it will take a long time. Will it ever happen? Yes, I will open myself up to others again someday. Will I heal? Not entirely. Do we ever truly heal? Or do we just let ourselves forget over time by putting something else in it's place?
It's going to be tough to put something else in replace of my heart but it'll happen. I'll find something or someone else to love and it'll be good and pure. It'll be just like it was. I read today that it takes people on average almost 18 months to get over a break up. I'm sure this applies to people who were truly in love, who had a true relationship for at least a year. We were together for 2. I hope it doesn't take me that long.
I will get over this one day, whether that means having to replace someone for someone else. I will heal and I will be whole again. And I'll look back on these posts and say "wow, I can't believe I was that distraught over you. I found someone else who was deserving and beautiful and pure and everything you weren't. And most important of all they love me and make me happy. Happiness was something you could never give me."
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
Everyday Magick
So I have some amazing news! First of all, I met with my teacher the other day and was informed that my little Wiccan Study Group is destined to become a training coven. Although, the study group meetings will remain open for everyone, the coven shall not be. Only members and people who are dedicated in joining the coven will be allowed to meet with us for rituals. We may have open Sabbats though.
What's even more exciting and a little nerve racking is that my teacher wants me to take on the responsibility of being the High Priestess of it. He wants me to think of it as "on the job training". So my Sister Witch, Cara is going to be assisting me in making all this happen. I've got her working on writing down and recording Dynion Mwyn rituals right now.
She's going to be a big part in this coven, so I'm expecting a lot out of her. Tonight, I'm going to get started on writing down the laws of the coven so every member knows what is expected of them. These laws will include attendance, code of ethics, obligations outside of rituals, and expected study. Some of you may think that's a little too much for a coven especially if you've never been in one.
However, a coven is a family unit. We work together, worship together, and raise energy together. It's for those who are especially dedicated in learning the Wiccan Tradition and the Craft. If you are not dedicated to this path, then you probably shouldn't claim it as your religion. Nothing makes me more annoyed than someone who claims they are Wiccan and never follows through with it or practices or worships regularly.
I don't believe anyone is doing themselves any good by being spiritual some of the time. You have to be spiritual all of the time. I do magick everyday and no that doesn't mean that I do a ritual everyday or a spell everyday. There are small things you can do that are magickal. You may not think that sitting on your couch with your eyes closed for 10 minutes just listening to yourself breathe is magickal but it is. It's meditation and it's becoming one with yourself, it's relieving your stress, it's relaxing your muscles, it's helping you to reconnect with yourself all in 10 minutes.
You may not think that vacuuming your room is very magickal but it is if you think about it! As one would use a broom to sweep away negativity from your sacred space, you are taking it away by vacuuming your room and keeping it tidy. You are ridding your space of negativity.
Once you start thinking of your days like this, you'll start to realize that you create magick all the time. That you live and breathe magick every single day.If you need a little help thinking this way, or trying to fit magick into your day here's a really neat book that I would recommend: Wicca: A Year and A Day By Timothy Roderick.
You can find it here: http://www.amazon.com/Wicca-Year-Spiritual-Practice-Craft/dp/0738706213/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1360704694&sr=8-1&keywords=wicca+a+year+and+a+day
What's even more exciting and a little nerve racking is that my teacher wants me to take on the responsibility of being the High Priestess of it. He wants me to think of it as "on the job training". So my Sister Witch, Cara is going to be assisting me in making all this happen. I've got her working on writing down and recording Dynion Mwyn rituals right now.
She's going to be a big part in this coven, so I'm expecting a lot out of her. Tonight, I'm going to get started on writing down the laws of the coven so every member knows what is expected of them. These laws will include attendance, code of ethics, obligations outside of rituals, and expected study. Some of you may think that's a little too much for a coven especially if you've never been in one.
However, a coven is a family unit. We work together, worship together, and raise energy together. It's for those who are especially dedicated in learning the Wiccan Tradition and the Craft. If you are not dedicated to this path, then you probably shouldn't claim it as your religion. Nothing makes me more annoyed than someone who claims they are Wiccan and never follows through with it or practices or worships regularly.
I don't believe anyone is doing themselves any good by being spiritual some of the time. You have to be spiritual all of the time. I do magick everyday and no that doesn't mean that I do a ritual everyday or a spell everyday. There are small things you can do that are magickal. You may not think that sitting on your couch with your eyes closed for 10 minutes just listening to yourself breathe is magickal but it is. It's meditation and it's becoming one with yourself, it's relieving your stress, it's relaxing your muscles, it's helping you to reconnect with yourself all in 10 minutes.
You may not think that vacuuming your room is very magickal but it is if you think about it! As one would use a broom to sweep away negativity from your sacred space, you are taking it away by vacuuming your room and keeping it tidy. You are ridding your space of negativity.
Once you start thinking of your days like this, you'll start to realize that you create magick all the time. That you live and breathe magick every single day.If you need a little help thinking this way, or trying to fit magick into your day here's a really neat book that I would recommend: Wicca: A Year and A Day By Timothy Roderick.
You can find it here: http://www.amazon.com/Wicca-Year-Spiritual-Practice-Craft/dp/0738706213/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1360704694&sr=8-1&keywords=wicca+a+year+and+a+day
Monday, February 11, 2013
White
It's not a big surprise that white is symbolic of purity. It's a clean color. No blemishes. No spots. Just a clean slate that everyone wish they had. What I find so unique about this color is that it's a reflection of all the colors. It's as if all the colors lend an attribute to it and it's compiled into one color.
I love using white candles. I feel like they are representative of many things that I treasure and need in life. Whenever I do rituals with people, I give them white candles to light and meditate upon. These candles symbolize their higher power, purity, and spirituality.
Sunday, February 10, 2013
At Odds
Last night, my Sister Witch Cara and I, performed our Spiritual Awakening Ritual together for the New Moon. I thought it would be appropriate since the New Moon represents new beginnings and fresh starts. Even thought the New Moon is today, you can perform Esbat Rituals up to three days before and some say up to three days after.
If you'd like to see the ritual that we performed, it's posted on my other blog which you can find at http://www.goddesspoetry.blogspot.com/.
Tonight, I think I'm going to ask the Goddess to heal me, to help me get past everything that's been going on. I was so attached; I was so emotionally invested in my relationship because I thought it would be something good. I thought it would turn out for the better and then I was blind sided by everyone. I'm getting tired of people saying "this is what God wants" because it's not God who makes our choices. It's us.
That's what's making it so hard for me to move on from this because I know that this was his parent's choice for us not to be together and he's only doing it to make his family happy. It's driving me insane! I'm trying not to dwell on it too much. I'm trying to meet other people and be around those that make me happy. For a moment, I can escape everything and live normally but then my mind drifts back to the big "what if".
What if this happened or what if that happened. I just feel so lost and alone. I feel like no one understands my pain even though I know people have. At least maybe. I mean people find their husbands and wives cheating on them. I'm sure they feel as distraught as I do. How do they cope? How do they get over something like that? I need to learn this secret.
If you'd like to see the ritual that we performed, it's posted on my other blog which you can find at http://www.goddesspoetry.blogspot.com/.
Tonight, I think I'm going to ask the Goddess to heal me, to help me get past everything that's been going on. I was so attached; I was so emotionally invested in my relationship because I thought it would be something good. I thought it would turn out for the better and then I was blind sided by everyone. I'm getting tired of people saying "this is what God wants" because it's not God who makes our choices. It's us.
That's what's making it so hard for me to move on from this because I know that this was his parent's choice for us not to be together and he's only doing it to make his family happy. It's driving me insane! I'm trying not to dwell on it too much. I'm trying to meet other people and be around those that make me happy. For a moment, I can escape everything and live normally but then my mind drifts back to the big "what if".
What if this happened or what if that happened. I just feel so lost and alone. I feel like no one understands my pain even though I know people have. At least maybe. I mean people find their husbands and wives cheating on them. I'm sure they feel as distraught as I do. How do they cope? How do they get over something like that? I need to learn this secret.
Saturday, February 9, 2013
Orange
I don't use very many orange candles. I think the main reason that I don't is because I never really knew what they represented. Now that I do, I think I'll be using them more often. I could use some control and personal strength in my life right now. I'm not feeling like a very strong person. I've been going through a major depression for the past month and I'm starting to think that I should start going to therapy or counseling.
I'm not really sure what to do. I've had a bunch of things going on and most of it has to do with my ex. He just destroyed me and my trust and it's going to take me a long time to get over everything. I don't really have too many people to talk to about it. I should probably rephrase that. I don't have too many people telling me what I want to hear about it.
I don't mind hearing that everything will be okay. However, I wish someone would say that he's a dumbass and that I'm beautiful and deserve better. For some reason, no one has been giving me that kind of support and that's the kind of support that I need right now.
I don't mind hearing that everything will be okay. However, I wish someone would say that he's a dumbass and that I'm beautiful and deserve better. For some reason, no one has been giving me that kind of support and that's the kind of support that I need right now.
Thursday, February 7, 2013
Black
So black candles, anyone? I don't know too many people that use black candles in their Craft. I'm not sure if it's because of the negative connotations associated with them or because they feel that black candles aren't necessary to their magick. Whatever the reason, I have used black candles before, particularly on Samhain. However, it was not to conjure demons or cast curses on anyone.It was to represent the dead.
As for absorbing negativity, I personally use salt. I've never used a black candle for that purpose but it seems pretty interesting to do so. Fortunately, I've never had to banish anything from me or from someone. I've never had anything foul attach itself to me and suppose it has something to do with your vulnerability. I'm not a very vulnerable person although my energiies can get out of whack when I'm upset about things.
When you use the word banishing in a sense that you are banishing negativity from yourself, or feelings, or memories you do not wish to keep, I've never used a black candle for that either. It appears that black candles can be used for quite a bit of magick although they can be substituted for different materials.
I don't know how many people have heard of the store called A Touch of Magick but it's located near my hometown in Warner Robins, Georgia. I go there sometimes when I need some magickal supplies. They have some really neat stuff in there although it's more expensive than buying off the web. Every time I go in there, they are out of ritual black candles. They have every other color (although low on red as well), but black is always out. Kind of makes me wonder...
Are they using black candles for protection, banishing, and absorbing negativity....or for things much more sinister. We don't all have the same moral compass or code of ethics around here. Just saying.
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
Pink
I just want to say that before I start talking about the color pink, this is my least favorite color. It's not my least favorite because "pink is a girly color" but it's because I consider it kind of weak in a way. Pink is basically a shade of red (a mixture of red and white) which to me makes it just a weaker strength of color compared to the color red. So when I'm doing spells, depending on how strong I want the spells to be, I go with the stronger colors.
However, I think pink is ideal for love and building relationships. To me, pink is a stepping stone to trying to strengthen the relationships that you're trying to form with others whether this be friendly ties or inquisitive love. Many love spells require the color pink to be incorporated in some way, most likely with pink candles.
I remember when I was about 8 years old and my mother bought me a book about love spells. It came with a set of pink tea lites and rose oil so you could do your own love spell. I had no knowledge or understanding of what I was doing at the time but I was so intrigued that I decided to try it. I laugh at it now. Not only did the spell not work, but I didn't even really finish it. I loved those candles and I couldn't think of letting them burn all the way out for one single spell!
Of course, now we know why we let the candles burn all the way out. So they can send their energy out to make the spell possible. It's kind of amazing how young I was when I became attracted to Witchcraft. I even used to make "potions" when I was really little with my brother. I was so weird.
However, I think pink is ideal for love and building relationships. To me, pink is a stepping stone to trying to strengthen the relationships that you're trying to form with others whether this be friendly ties or inquisitive love. Many love spells require the color pink to be incorporated in some way, most likely with pink candles.
I remember when I was about 8 years old and my mother bought me a book about love spells. It came with a set of pink tea lites and rose oil so you could do your own love spell. I had no knowledge or understanding of what I was doing at the time but I was so intrigued that I decided to try it. I laugh at it now. Not only did the spell not work, but I didn't even really finish it. I loved those candles and I couldn't think of letting them burn all the way out for one single spell!
Of course, now we know why we let the candles burn all the way out. So they can send their energy out to make the spell possible. It's kind of amazing how young I was when I became attracted to Witchcraft. I even used to make "potions" when I was really little with my brother. I was so weird.
Monday, February 4, 2013
The Spirit of Purple
I generally associate the color purple with the Spirit element. Since each element has a color association (ie blue is to water, red is to fire), I place purple with the spirit. I'll most definitely be incorporating the color purple in my Spiritual Awakening Ritual that I'm preparing for myself and my friend in the Craft.
Colors have meaning. They have substance. They have characteristics. They have a purpose and they have life. In our Craft, we use them to represent our emotions, our desires, and our fears. It's amazing how strongly we associate these things with simple colors and by doing so we project our wills through them. We will be using the color purple to connect with our spirits, purify them, and use them to achieve spiritual enlightenment in my upcoming New Moon Ritual with my friend.
Although purple will be the focal point color, I also want to incorporate blues and reds because of their meanings, blue being associated with calmness and emotions and red being associated with energy and will. I still have to write out the ritual for us to do as soon as I get done doing other things that I need to get done for college.
I have so many priorities and so little time.
Although purple will be the focal point color, I also want to incorporate blues and reds because of their meanings, blue being associated with calmness and emotions and red being associated with energy and will. I still have to write out the ritual for us to do as soon as I get done doing other things that I need to get done for college.
I have so many priorities and so little time.
Sunday, February 3, 2013
Helping Others
I wonder if people recognize the importance of the New Moon as much as I do? Most Witches perform spells, rituals, and other magick workings on the Full Moon because it's more prominent in the Wiccan culture. However, I like to recognize the New Moon as well. Not only is it the Crone aspect of the Goddess but it also signifies her rebirth as the Maiden and thus new beginnings and fresh starts.
My friend, who is a sister in the Craft with me and also helps me with the Wiccan Study Group, will be doing a new moon ritual with me next weekend. I need to start constructing it for the both of us. I really want to focus on her and opening her up to her full potential as a powerful Witch. She just needs a little motivation and determination to put her back on her true path so she can fulfill her destiny in the Craft.
The Old Ones, the higher beings that we follow in my tradition, act as our guides giving us advice and helping us when we're lost. She feels as though they are frustrated with her and her stagnant position right now. I'm going to get her moving forward again. I know I'm going to pull her out of her slump that she's been going through and that's why I'm going to make the ritual very specific to her needs.
I'm going to be working on writing that ritual this week and probably add it to my Book of Shadows. I think I'll title it "Spiritual Awakening Ritual" since that's what the ritual is going to be centered on. I think the New Moon would be a perfect time to do this for her and then she can work on building upon it during the waxing moon which is supposed to be a good time for building relationships and constructive magick.
As for now, I should stop procrastinating and do some reading not only for school but for the Craft as well. I'm right in the middle of a book that I haven't been reading because of other events in my life. These other events keep pulling me away from what I've been called to do but not anymore. Back to meditation, reading, and doing what I need to do.
The Blues
Whenever I do meditation, I normally use cool, blue candles. I stare into their flames and just forget myself, forget my troubles, my worries, my uncertainties, and just relax. I associate the color blue with serenity, tranquility peacefulness, water, emotions, compassion, and many other things that correlate. As of the moment, it's my favorite color. Especially deep midnight blue.
I associate blue with positive things while others would associate the color blue with sadness. It is an emotional color. The "blues" were even named after it. Sometimes, when I am feeling sad or depressed I don't like looking at the color or being around it. Other people would agree the color can have a powerful impact on their emotions especially when they are emotional vulnerable or unstable.
Saturday, February 2, 2013
Imbolc
So I'm sure everyone knows what today is! It's Candlemas of course! About every Pagan and Wiccan I talked to seemed to not be having anything going on for this very special Sabbat which kind of surprised me. Candlemas, or Imbolc, or Nos Gwyl Fair, is a major Sabbat and represents new beginnings. The Lady of Fire and Lord of Ice are celebrated on this day. In my tradition we celebrate with the Celtic Fire Goddess Brighid and celebrate her return as well as the return of the God.
If you want to read more about Candlemas in my tradition you can go here: http://www.dynionmwyn.net/Candlemas.html
February 2nd is also part of another tradition: Groundhog's Day! Some people don't believe in Groundhog's Day. I'm sure they're saying to themselves right now "how is a groundhog going to determine if it's still winter or spring?" or "who cares". Well, it's been a tradition for a very long time. It's older than even some of the traditions in Wicca!
For Imbolc, I got up early this morning to get dressed and refreshed. Then I did meditation for about an hour and took care of my plants. I'm planning on doing a traditional ritual tonight for it which includes all the trimmings. Unfortunately, my friend who was going to celebrate it with me has a family get together. I wonder why pretty much all of my Pagan, Wiccan, and Witch friends aren't celebrating it.
In fact, I'm starting to notice that people are getting really lazy when it comes to recognizing Sabbats and Esbats. I understand the busy lives that people live but it doesn't take long to take 10 minutes out of the day to at least meditate. Plus, it's a Saturday. The people I know don't work on Saturdays. We need to kick this lazy attitude to the curb and get the ball rolling again.
Anyway, Happy Imbolc everyone!
If you want to read more about Candlemas in my tradition you can go here: http://www.dynionmwyn.net/Candlemas.html
February 2nd is also part of another tradition: Groundhog's Day! Some people don't believe in Groundhog's Day. I'm sure they're saying to themselves right now "how is a groundhog going to determine if it's still winter or spring?" or "who cares". Well, it's been a tradition for a very long time. It's older than even some of the traditions in Wicca!
For Imbolc, I got up early this morning to get dressed and refreshed. Then I did meditation for about an hour and took care of my plants. I'm planning on doing a traditional ritual tonight for it which includes all the trimmings. Unfortunately, my friend who was going to celebrate it with me has a family get together. I wonder why pretty much all of my Pagan, Wiccan, and Witch friends aren't celebrating it.
In fact, I'm starting to notice that people are getting really lazy when it comes to recognizing Sabbats and Esbats. I understand the busy lives that people live but it doesn't take long to take 10 minutes out of the day to at least meditate. Plus, it's a Saturday. The people I know don't work on Saturdays. We need to kick this lazy attitude to the curb and get the ball rolling again.
Anyway, Happy Imbolc everyone!
Friday, February 1, 2013
Seeing Red
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What emotions do you feel when you see the color red? Is it passion? Is it lust? Is it anger or wrath? When I was a child the three colors that I always bounced back and forth from being my favorite were red, blue, and purple. Whenever I was calm, my favorite color was blue. Whenever I was doing something adventurous or courageous, my favorite color was purple. But whenever I was bold or daring even borderline dangerous, my favorite color was red.
Personally, I rarely use the color red for love. I mainly reserve that for pink. If I do use the color red, then I also use pink with it to balance out the power of passion (red) with the power of tenderness and romance (pink). For some reason, I feel that red is a very strong color and a wild color. I've always associated it with being hard to tame and control. I suppose this would coincide with the color being that of will and strength.
Whenever I am incorporating this color into my Craft, I never use it for anger or violence of any kind. I make sure that I am at peace with myself and those around me in my environment before using this color in spells. I never cast spells out of anger or revenge. I never cast spells when I am in that frame of mind either as it can affect you and those who are around you.
I use it often when referring to life and energy and in motivational spells. It always helps to keep the blood flowing and finding some inspiration in motivation. I'm at a very crucial moment in my life and I can always use a little red to help get the ball rolling.
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