Grandparents

Today was so awesome. I did volunteer work today at the Breast Center and met this really nice old lady named Evelyn. She was the coolest woman ever! She cracked jokes, told me about herself and her accomplishments, told me about the dog she got from the humane society and everything. She graduated from my college with a major in music at 79 years old! What a woman!

She told me how people around my campus saw her as a grandmother figure. I wish I had a grandmother like her. Most of my grandparents died when I was very young and the one remaining grandparent I have is my mother's mother who never visited us, talked to us, or wanted anything to do with us.

She's not really a grandmother in my opinion. On Grandparent's Day at my elementary school I would sit at my desk while everyone else was playing or off doing cool things with their grandparent's like eating lunch together. I hated Grandparent's Day and I still do. My teacher's would ask me if I had anyone for Grandparent's Day because they'd feel sorry for me. I would just tell them my grandparent's were dead.

It's not like my grandmother was unable to see me. She has two houses and is a multi-millionaire. She owns her own mountain in Tennessee with a mansion and a closed off apartment attached to it. It used to be a farm with beef cows until they sold them all. She also owns her own private beach in Panama City, Florida and beach house. We lived right off I-75 which is the interstate you'd take through Georgia to get to those places. They never stopped by and they would pass through at least twice a year.

I live about an hour and a half from my grandmother's mansion in Tennessee now because of where my college is located. She's never come to see me or asked me to see her. She's never called me a day in her life or emailed.

Yeah, I'm a little bitter about it and probably always will be because I'll see others who have the fun, baking cookies, can tell anything to, grandmother that I'll never have.

About a month ago I had the most awesome dream though. I had a dream of my great grandma (my mother's grandma) and of my granny (my father's mother). I remember my great grandma because she acted like a grandma to me. She used to take her fake teeth out and it would make me laugh. I remember my granny as well because I was four when she died from lung cancer. I remember seeing her for Easter in her bed and spinning around in my Easter dress to show it to her and giving her a hug.

In my dream they looked the same but younger, more lively. My great grandma was wearing a powder blue pant suit with a white blouse. She had brilliant white hair and glasses. My granny was wearing khaki pants, a blouse and cardigan. I sat down with them both. My great grandma told me she was very disappointed in my mother for cheating on my father and abandoning us. She said that she was very proud of me and wanted me to know that I grew into a beautiful young woman.

She made me laugh though because she was like, "I'm not so sure about this whole "Witch business" but I know you have a path and need to follow it". I asked her if she had seen God because I knew she was Christian. She surprised me with her answer. She told me that she hadn't seen God and that it could be a man or a woman or both so any religion could be right.

My granny was so cool. She was a little firecracker talking about my mother. It made me laugh. I bet if she were still alive we would've been great friends. She also told me about how proud she was of me.

It was a very vivid dream and a wonderful dream. I woke up with tears because I realized how much I missed them and how much I've had missed out on.