Charity

So right now I'm in a very motivated state of mind. I've been asking people for letters of recommendation for graduate and for medical school. I guess I could also just go ahead and apply to vet school. However, I'm not sure if I even want to be a vet anymore. It would be a nice job but I kind of want to be a nurse, a vet technician, or maybe, if I can get into med school, a doctor.

I'm putting together my medical folder for the Medical Board Committee here at College. They'll review my folder and see if I'm worthy of going to medical school. They can't stop me from applying, but they can seriously hinder my chances at acceptance if they choose not to write me their own letter of recommendation. I know a few of the professors on the board and maybe they'll be nice to my efforts.

It's funny how I'm choosing all these science-y fields when my least favorite subject in High School was science. I was never bad at science, I just found it quite boring. Sometimes I wonder what I really want out of life. My main goal in life isn't to get into medical school but just to be able to help people and contribute to someone's life in a major way. I guess I felt like that meant becoming a doctor.

Sometimes I think about joining the Peace Corps but I don't know if I'd like being away from my family for so long. I wouldn't mind digging a well in Africa so the people could have fresh water there. I talk to people about these ideas and things I want to accomplish in life and I believe they think I'm crazy for it. I can't believe that everyone is so self absorbed. They all tell me, "You just need to start a career and have a family. Take care of yourself and your own. That's good enough for the world." I just don't believe that's so.

I know what's wrong with the world. People think that way as I stated above. They only show love to their own and people who are like minded. Or maybe not even like minded because I know people who constantly backstab and talk about their so called "friends". People don't love each other like they used to. They don't have the same compassion for each other, sympathy or empathy. It's all a money thing now. Money seems to be the driving force in the world; it controls us and what we can do.

We, my friends, are hoarders of money. We treat this land like we own it and not like we're apart of it, not like we came from it, which is completely wrong. This land is not ours, we share it with so many other people, animals, vegetation. We're here to bring healing to the Earth and to its inhabitants. I may sound like a hippie but maybe they're right. One day, we're going to wake up and realize that lending a helping hand for free is one of the greatest gifts we can give to a person. As a doctor, I probably will make money, but I also want to help people for free, those who cannot help themselves. I want my services to be done out of kindness and not out of how much you're willing to pay me to do it.